On my best days, I’m pretty good at focusing on things and completing necessary tasks. I have a bit of a neurotic streak and, when necessary, I’m prone to making to-do lists so I can be productive and get things done. I think it is fairly safe to say that my good days haven’t been as frequent lately as I’d like. For that, I apologize since my work on the site has been suffering. Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere any time soon.

Derailed

I love patterns. There’s something comforting about a routine for me. For example, my parents and I go to the same Chinese restaurant for lunch every Saturday. The weekend doesn’t feel quite the same without our weekly dose of noodles. Once I get started in a routine, it’s really easy to stick to it because that’s just the way things are.

Once I deviate from those patterns, however, it’s the most challenging thing in the world to try and get back on track. I know that I’m not the only one with these issues. Back in December, I got off track here and, unfortunately, with my fitness routine. I managed to make it to the gym last week, but here? Well, I’m still stumbling.

It’s really hard to be kind to myself when I falter. As I’ve said before, I’m my own biggest critic. On top of mentally beating myself up, I tend to just start avoiding whatever I’ve messed up. Fortunately for you all, I can’t avoid working on this site. It’s my baby, after all. We’ve put too much work into it to stop now.

I can’t make any promises about strict adherence to the traditional content schedule, but I am going to continue producing new content for you every week. While I’m getting myself back into the pattern and habit of posting here, I’m going to even try to get some sort of buffer worked out. It’s crazy, I know, but it’s something I’ve been considering for a while now. There are just some days when the words are flowing from my fingers or, like last week, I’ve managed to injure myself while keeping myself from falling. For the record, the gym parking lot is super slippery and my flip-flops have no traction.

So, now that I’ve talked about what’s going on here, let’s change tracks.

Wandering Thoughts

Here are a few highlights from the past week:

I saw Welcome to Night Vale live at The Lincoln Theater in DC. It was a good time and I was glad that I decided to spring for the ticket. ¬†While the show was great, chatting with my friends beforehand ended up inspiring a post on Tumblr that ended up having the most notes of any post I’ve ever made on the site. It may not seem like much, but it’s always good to get some sort of validation for the random thoughts that pop up in my mind.

I did see Home with my father on Thursday and have been poking at a review. With luck, it’ll be finished this week. I’m sorry for the delay. In brief, I liked it but felt that it was lacking something. I’ll get into specifics in the forthcoming review.

I interviewed for a newly-created position within my company. It’d be a promotion and I should be hearing about whether or not I got it within the next few days. This is the first time I’ve worked somewhere long enough to even consider a promotion. When you’ve spent most of your working years as a temp or contract employee, it’s hard to think long-term. By hard, I mean impossible.

After more weeks off then I care to admit, I started going back to the gym. It’s been a light month at the office so I can’t use work as an excuse to keep myself out of the gym. I just have to keep reminding myself that I can do this. I should do this.

For the first time in months, I started on a bit of creative writing. Admittedly, it’s fanfic. Not only is it fanfic, it’s Dragon Age: Inquisition fanfic. I regret nothing. Writing is writing and goodness knows I’m rusty. I was about to comment on the fact that I didn’t think I’d ever finished any of my creative writing projects. Then I remembered that I did take a creative writing class once. I wrote a couple of short stories for it. I wonder where they’ve run off to.

Huh. Maybe I’ll think about posting some of my creative writing ventures for my Patreon backers. That’s always something to consider.

In any event, folks, it’s been rough, but we’ll get back into the swing of things. We’re even brainstorming some big ideas for our official “comeback.” Stay tuned for any news on that front.