January and I are not the best of friends. I’m talking about the month, not a person named January. I don’t know anyone named January. So, if your name is January, this is not directed at you. This is just going to be a general discussion about my relationship with the month of January.

Wind Up to Wind Down

Every year, I end up feeling generally awful in January. Normally, I’d assume that this is due to the sudden lack of activity after New Year’s Eve. December is a month full of activity and fun with the holidays. This year, I had a bit of that followed by a week of plague and the last-minute rush to prepare everything for the annual New Year’s Eve party. I can’t really blame the flurry of activity during December for my current feeling of “meh.”

For a lot of people, winter is a rough time of year. It’s dark and cold in my neck of the woods. Sure, the solstice has passed and the days are getting longer. That doesn’t change the fact that it’s been really freaking cold around here. We had some snow, though, and that was pretty neat. I didn’t have to shovel it (thanks, Mom and Dad!) which made it extra neat. I’m not going to lie, I love looking at snow, but I’m not too keen on doing things like shoveling and stuff. I don’t know anyone who does.

Now, back to the point. The thing is, January is always a bit of a low point for me. It feels like everything takes much more effort to accomplish. As you may have noticed, I’m a little behind on my lists and reviews. It’s just been rough trying to my thoughts and words in order. I’ve been poking away at this one review for a while with little success. With luck, maybe it will appear on your screens on Friday.

Remember last week when I talked about New Year’s Resolutions and how I try not to spent any time on regret? That’s still true. Unfortunately, my brain and I have this disagreement when it comes to going to bed these days. I’ll lay in bed and my mind starts wandering off to the things I am doing, could be doing, or should be doing. Of course, my brain likes to time this for when I actually have to be up in the morning. It’s terribly inconvenient like that.

We’ll Get There

I know that this feeling won’t last forever. I know that I just need to get through the rest of January and maybe early February. The yearly “meh” doesn’t tend to last all that long. It’s just a matter of getting through it. I will get through it as I do every year.

For the next few weeks, I’m going to do my best to keep up with everything. It’s going to be a bit of a challenge, but I’m going to do what I can. I’m also going to be kinder to myself if I don’t keep up with all of my obligations. There’s the rub, of course. Being kind to yourself. When you’re stuck in the land of “meh,” not living up to the expectations you’ve set for yourself can seem like a big failure.

The trick is not to dwell on that failure. Just take a step back and remind yourself that you’re only human. Sometimes, you have limitations and that’s all right. Don’t be too hard on yourself.

That’s my January mantra. With that, I’ll make it through the “meh” and be back up to prime Tegan-ness in no time. Until then, things may be a little rough.

For now, I’m going to get back to my “Parks and Recreation” marathon.  When you’re slogging through the “meh,” you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do. Maybe Leslie Knope’s (Amy Poehler) sunny disposition will rub off on me.