When last my words graced this page, I wrote about writing fanfiction. I’m actually in the middle of the third part of that piece I started last week. It’s been getting pretty well-received considering it’s a less popular pairing in the fandom. The first two parts flew from my fingers with relative ease. This third part? It’s been giving me fits.

What’s the deal?

My general plan when I sit down to write something is to not plan it at all. Over the years, this lack of planning has both worked for and failed me. Most of my blog posts for this site aren’t planned in the slightest. I start with an idea and then just start writing until I stop. It seems to work well and it’s not likely to change at any time in the near future.

I’ve come to the realization that I can’t keep doing that with all things I attempt to write. With this fanfic piece in particular, I’ve discovered that I have to plan some of it out. I started taking notes about things that are going to happen or plot stuff I want to cover. Then, I started psyching myself out. I mean, people liked the first two parts, but what if my next bits of writing don’t live up to their expectations? I would hate to let the readers down, you know?

I mentioned my concerns to a friend of mine today and he said that a lot of creative writing programs train you to take a hit. My response? “That’s logical and I can take a hit. I mean, I’ve failed at more things than I’ve succeeded. Taking hits isn’t the difficulty. It’s reminding myself that I’ve taken harder blows than what may come from my current endeavor.”

So, I poked at the third part of my fanfic for the better part of four or so days. I couldn’t seem to get anything to stick. Then, I had a busy weekend full of cleaning up prior to the arrival of company, hanging out with said company, and then cleaning up after them. I finally had a breakthrough today. With luck, I’ll have that bit done by the time I finally sleep tonight. Phew. After that, I can get back to editing my friend’s work. I feel like such a slacker.

Yeah, and?

As you’ve noticed, I’ve been terrible about updating this site lately. It’s not that I’m giving up on this or that I don’t think you all are awesome or anything. It’s just been tough finding topics, words, and motivation. That said, I’m refusing to let this slide any farther. This week, at least, you’ll have a blog post and a list. The Weekend in Geek might make a comeback. We’ll see about the review. I’m not making any promises I may be unable to keep.

We’re getting there, folks. We’ll get there. I just want you to know that I’m still here and committed to making this site just what we all deserve. It may take me a bit and I may not always be on-time, but I’ll do my best. That’s all anyone can do.

For now, I’ve got to get back to my fanfic.